Here without you

I guess I'll just wait. Wait n watch. And stop cribbing about the past, as for that matter, even the present and the future.
I hope you'll just be there for me. Seeing me through.

The only thing constant is Change - II

Its a different feeling, letting go of all your inhibitions. Its silly; you feel so out of place and foolish once you've done it, you feel like kicking yourself in the a*se, you feel like you have been exposed, robbed of all your private emotions and scattered them all around for everyone to see, feel, touch and comment on. You feel like a kid who has wet his bed, and couldn't hide it from his parents in the morning. Yet again, you have to do it sometimes. Because you want to feel robbed. Because you had to feel exposed. Its like a primeval sadomasochistic instinct to feel raped and looted of all your deepest desires, lurking in the forbidden corners of your mind.
Its even tougher when you know that you're mature enough not to do it, and you cannot justify that action by simply blaming it as a childish whim and naivety. You injure your confidence, your ego, your self-belief, your logic and your I-am-fine-Thank-you life. Maybe all things really cannot be put into that equation of life, where the R.H.S is a definite integral of fame, fortune and money over time. I feel lost and confused.
I guess I can see a light at the end of this tunnel. I can see the see the shadowy walls with green lichens pass by me in motion blur. I hope I can reach that light, eventually. Till then, it seems I will just have to read into the twisting shapes of the lichens.
They will tell the story of my life, one day.

The Reason

Is there really a reason? Do I really need one? What if the real reason is that its unreasonable enough to go about in the dark, trying to grope into the cluttered walls with old paintings and sepia-toned frames,with the spiders just waiting for its prey to land; and amidst the clutter, your torch suddenly flashes past by the tin soldier that you lost when you were a kid, and frantically searched for it till the last teardrop left its trail of saltdust over your cheeks? The reason is not what I care for, its the uncanny state of not finding one which enchants me.

A cake with butter-paper sticking to its side.Thats reason enough for me.

Purno das Baul

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The only thing constant is Change-I

Maybe I just liked the way it was. School, mad rush to the tutions, screaming for food before I could actually pull out my socks, the stealthy looks searching out for some known faces while buying the much needed fag during the after-tutions at GDs' or Amartyas'; Even for that matter, college...
...waking up,classes,or bunking most of them,evening escapades to the riverside or Huts or Sashmoler dokan for the regular cha,ciggys,bhaja maggi,dim toast,Projapoti,and other delectables never to be heard of in a Barrista or CCD,drunken stupor on Bangla(70%) or Old Monk,crushing dope while porn being played on mute on one side of the room,and wannabe guitarists strumming Mala or Hotel California on the other,dozing off in beds which could be easily be adorned in a penitentiary,waking up...routine life.

All at once it came shattering down.Unfinished

Best Original Song for "Falling Slowly" from the film "Once" - the 80th Annual Academy Awards

Lyrics | Falling Slowly lyrics

I've Learned

I've learned
that no matter what happens,
or how bad it seems
today, life does go on, and it will be better
tomorrow.

I've learned that you can tell a lot about
a person by the way he/she handles these
three things:
a rainy day, lost luggage, and
tangled Christmas tree lights.

I've learned that regardless of your
relationship with your parents,
you'll miss them when they're gone from
your life.

I've learned that making a "living" is not
the same thing as making
a "life."

I've learned that life sometimes gives you
a second chance.

I've learned that you shouldn't go through
life with a catcher's mitt on both hands.

You need to be able to throw something back.

I've learned that if you pursue happiness,
it will elude you. But if you focus on your
family, your friends, the needs of others, your
work and doing the very best you can,
happiness will find you.

I've learned that whenever I decide
something with an open heart,
I usually make the right decision.

I've learned that even when I have pains, I
don't have to be one.

I've learned that every day you should
reach out and touch someone. People
love that human touch - holding hands,
a warm hug, or just a friendly pat on the back.

I've learned that I still have a lot to
learn.

I've learned that people will forget what
you said, people will forget what you did,
but people will never forget how you made
them feel.

~Anonymous